It still hurts you know...

Month of hearts.. What the heck.. This really isn't bitterness because of my lonely Valentine's, for years, used to it, but the feel of loving and being loved by someone is something that I really miss for the past 9 months. 

Didn't know moving on would really be this hard. Can't think of anything to do for me to say how I feel. Thought I'm over it. Am I? Guess not? Well.. Enough of all this obsession and foolishness. Now is the right time to stop. This day was supposed to be our 4th yr anniversary.. What the.. arrgggghhhh.. Oh well. I was hoping everything would be okay, that it would be back to normal, but no. Mooooove oooooonnn alex!! Not worth it...

Sometimes it's really nice to talk to yourself ain't it. Feeling all the stupidity and emptiness inside. Emoterang froglets again.  

God knows how I feel. Please help me. Time will come. Right time. Be patient....

8 months to go..

I'm excited to finish school, finally. I'm on my second term on my second and last year in school! Crossing my fingers that I'll survive my Thesis A, Software Engineering, Java, Oracle blah blah.. Just hoping to get over all these major subjects..

I first entered college on May 2003, stayed for 6 months (or two trimesters), again, I was working as a service crew that time, but then I went back to working full time again. After 2 or 3 years, I decided to go back to school thinking that I really need it to get a better job, and probably get a chance to go abroad, specifically Canada. I heard you can't go there unless you reached your 2nd year in college. And so I decided to enroll in a computer school, since I have always wanted to explore the world of computers and technology. I was just so happy to be back in school, but didn’t really realize getting an IT course was so tough! Programming racks up my brains!

What makes it so tough for me is that I always end up really sleepy, or sometimes, well, always late in school or for work. I can really say being a working student is really tough and definitely not a joke at all. Trying to survive the pressure you get from both work and school, ugh, pain in the a-- , uhmm, nerves..

I wanted to say more about this, but, I’ll do it next time.. I know it's bitin.. J